Doing Hard Things
I am not very good at this.
I like for things to be nice and easy. I don't want to step out of my comfort zone. I don't want to expose my way of thinking to others. I don't like to share my ideas for fear someone may disagree or think down on them. I find it funny that pretty much everything I have read this year speaks on stepping up and siezing your moment and stepping out of your comfort zone. I have written here before that I started leading (co- leading actually) a high school small group at church. This is a huge step for me. Right now we are in the middle of studying a book called "Do Hard Things." I will say that for the most part I am working and maybe even succeeding at doing hard things. There is a glaring spot that I recognize that I still let fear run that area. It seems like every time I think I gain momentum and overrule the fear something sets me back. I will say that it is mostly my mind. My thinking goes from excitement to worry to fear. I am tired of this. I want to move on from this to overcome the obstacle. I don't want to let fear decide how I make decisions. Even as I am writing this I am going through the range of emotion. Every night I ask for the opportunity to be confident and bold in this area, and I'll admit that most of the time I fail when the opportunity comes up. I was going to write that I was going to try to do better but trying isn't good enough. I will do better. I will be more confident.
